Today is like a long day to me sia.. super tired.. haha.. today go watch movie with my dear dear.. we go watch the prom night.. was kinda stupid but then is still much better than the stranger.. the stranger is really totally suck.. *yuck*

but i like the prom night show is only to see how they have their prom night.. is like so grand.. even the junior there also cheer for them... they get to dress nicely and attend it..

i do not have the chance to have any prom night at all... not in secondary sch also.. classmate n sch mate do not want to spend so much on prom night and the prom night hav to cancel cuz not much ppl wan to go for the prom night.. so sian... i really wish to go for any prom night actually.. it seem to be so excited and so nice... but do not hav the chance at all.. hais.. so envy the people at other countries and also other sch n my dear dear tat they have their prom night.. *envy*

ok.. enough of the show.. after watching show, we went to giant to see my portable stove.. cuz jason say that giant got sell and sell cheap de.. so went to giant and realise that giant is really tat big.. omg.. i neva went to giant b4.. lol.. i always go to ikea only.. lol... but then dear dear need transfer money to his bro so we went around the 3 whole big bulding there... from giant to ikea to courts... finally at courts see the atm.. lol..

then we go bak to giant to look for the portable stove... walk for quite sometimes then saw it.. omg.. is soooo ex... jason told mi $30plus can buy one le.. but then here sell $60 plus... *woot*
think dun wan buy 1st.. go shop other place then decide ba.. haiz.. waste my time to come here.. but was still happy that can shop around wit dear dear.. lol.. we like so long neva go shopping sia..

today workin n is like so rush.. today have 3 shipment need to go by today.. and stupid shipper dun wan give mi invoice n wan mi to make bookin of the ship.. stupid sia.. and everythin so last min... shit her.. lol..

anyway finally the shipping line haven go off yet though suppose they should finish work latest by 6. after everythin i have done n settle i leave the company n is like already 6.30... sian.. go rush for the bus cuz they meetin at 7 plus.. although have told nina tat i will be late n will reach about 7.30 plus to 8 but still try not to be late cuz i dun like to get late actually.. meet dear dear at tamp then we reach bugis at about 7.40.. i giv nina a call n she told mi she still at home n no one reach yet.. i was like thinkin how come so late yet no one turn up.. dear call zac n zac say will be reachin in another 10 mins.. finally he came n he told us tat nina told them to meet 7.30 or 7.45 instead of 7.. i was like zzzzz.. she didnt tell mi.. if she told mi earlier i no need to rush le..

end up all the ppl reach tat time is already 8.30pm.. we go have our dinner at dunno which indian house.. i eat mee goreng.. but cant finish.. so gib dear dear.. lol.. though was havin fun but i keep look out at the time.. scare will be late n he lock de door dun let mi go home..

when we finish eatin everythin. is already 9 plus.. n i need to go liao.. then i dunno why out of a sudden dunno why talk about wei jian n charlie is there n dunno what really go on.. but i knw when the time we finish dinner n the whole situation is very diff when we eatin dinner tat time...

when tell them we goin off tat time charlie also wan go le.. he really drive and send us home.. thanks charlie..

super tired..

today i ask dear dear if he want to go tml de gatherin ma.. he say he must see if can book out on time not n to see if i want to go not..

i was thinkin for it also.. maybe i will not turn up ba.. cuz i already told nina n maggie tat fri most likely i cant turn up also.. so dun think i really will wan to go ba.. some more they have decide to be on fri already i also dun wan later i tired then stress then show face then their mood spoil.. thinkin of it, i have really told nina n maggie b4 the date have cfm to be on fri that i cant really make it on fri le.. so why am i still thinkin of it?? sianz...


at night i watch news with my mother n realise that there is a taiwan food fare at bugis till end of july.. i was like *tink tink* maybe i will go bugis on fri to find my smelly tofu eat.. so make a call to dear dear n told him tat i decided to go n meet then tml...

dear dear say i siao.. go all the way to bugis just becuz of smelly tofu.. i tell him not only tat ma.. i also very long neva go out with him n i also very long neva go bugis le...

today nina only say that meeting up will be go fri becuz zac cannot make it on sat.. hmm.. becuz zac we have to rush down on fri.. wonder if i am able to meet them on time ma.. n dunno if dear dear will be able to come not.. he so long neva come for our gathering...

was thinking maybe of not goin ba.. dunno will be finish work at 6 or 7.. then reach there will be like 7 plus 8.. then i at 9 plus 10 need to go le.. just nice for a dinner to eat.. but normally they will be late and everything will be like so pack.. maybe without mi goin they can have more freedom??


any way must see dear dear can make it in time not n will i able to make it in time also not...


am i just too anything tat ppl tend to think tat i always anythin n they can do 1st without asking my opinion and after decision have made then inform mi n will think tat i will agree to everything?? maybe ba.. i also dunno...

today I call nina regarding about the meeting up on the firday. I ask her is it possible that dun meet on fri not cuz I workin n is like dear dear also dunno what time then can book out.. So in order to meet tgt n not rush I suggest to meet on sat cuz fri i also cant late go home.. sat working some more.. she say she will look for tis cuz is zac who suggest on fri de.. just hope tat we can meet on sat instead on fri...

today for mi is kinda boring.. I feel so sleepy sia.. Dunno why.. Really feel like slpin le… my life is not very good as there no dear dear beside mi.. If he is with mi everythin will be different. Really hope to see dear dear soon… anyway since a month ago i have lost 5kgs already.. but then i do see any changes in mi leh.. hw sia.. i still look so fat.. why is it so.. omg... shit shit shit

today is the day that all the babies gather tgt n have fun.. Today meet kat, jane, vinnie, little mika, little javier to go jess house n see little keith.. Haha.. And is all my fav.. I have the chance to carry all the babies at one go.. So happy..
but then today little mika not in a good mood. Today dunno why she keep crying.. But I think keith happy tat a lot ppl come find him.. He neva really cry today leh.. So cute.. N javier.. He really enjoy ppl to play with him.. No one play with him he will cry loudly.. tat is a bit playful.. lol.. but overall all of them are so cute..
I was like bz playin with all the babies n forget to take pic of them tgt.. So sad.. Nvm.. We still have the chance.. And take the pic with yun wen n little evan..

today my sister really havoc. She is like so funny. I was outside when she msg mi when she ask mi if it is possible that I can help her buy food cuz at home no cook.. Just to inform her that I will not go home so early and then she reply mi say that I dun wan buy can tell her de no need tell her so much.. wtf.. i was like just tell her that i will be late go home if she cant tahan she go buy herself. later tat she reply again. the msg she write is like " your father everyday also got cook. dunno why today i super hungry then he dun wan cook." when i see tis msg i totally fed up.. my father got the responsibilties to cook for her arh. he no cook you then go outside eat la.. like my father owe her the dinner like tat. like for mi i neva go home eat at all. cuz i dun wan my father to say anything about me. say wad so late then eat or no eat no inform all tis. but then really angry my sister sia.. she wan eat she can tell my father that she will be goin bak home eat de. nw he no cook then expect him to cook when no one inform him meh.. siao leh my sister..


I think about an hour later my sister call mi say that she kanna chase out of the house. The reason is she very hungry then she told my mother she very hungry. My mother ask her go n cook noodle or mee sua to eat. She say she dunno how to cook mee sua. my mother tell her how to cook le yet she dun wan n she angry n some sort like scold my mother. my elder sister not happy that my sister treat mother tat way n scold her. my sister damn angry and tell her off that next time if see my elder sister scold my mother or wad will give her 2 tight slap.. then my elder sister say come la.. my sister really wanna slap her.. then my mother shout or what... then my father heard tat n was angry n chase her out..


actually I was thinking that she is really rude n deserve to get scold n chase out de. 1) she is rude to my mother. 2) mee sua so ez to cook n is just like maggi mee why she need to get angry for tis. If she really dunno hw to cook she can go out n ta bao de ma. for wad she angry. 3) to be the youngest how can u give your elder sister tight slap.. but then i neva tell her all tis if not she angry and will say that i always side them but not her.
she told mi to take her bag n clothes out for her cuz she for sure not goin home le. I was like keep quiet. Dun really care. For wad I wan help her. If I help her which mean I encourage her to go out n dun come home lo. After tat when I reach home she keep callin mi n sms mi. say wad i better faster bring out for her. was damn pek chek.. my mother ask mi to msg my sister to come bak home nw. i do wad she say. but then my sister reply say she dun wan. she already phobia to come bak home all tis nonsense. is like i like to go home like tat. i also dun wan go home wad but still hav to come bak home wad.. i msg her again n say that you wan you tell them yourself n ask her to come bak the 2nd time. she reply say that for sure she dun wan come bak. wan talk i talk myself.. i really damn pek chek n msg her the last time n said last time tellin you to come bak home.. then she reply tat she also tell mi last time that she dun wan come bak home n if i dun wan to help her bring out her bag n clothes then she jump down from her.. zzzzzzzzzz... damn pek chek.. i just throw her bag outside n tell her that her bag is outside already


she called again n say that I neva bring her key n y no clothes.. I was like zzzzzzz.. Help her bring her bag out she still request so much.. My mother ask mi again where is she why still not yet bak home I tell my mother if she wan stand at the door there she will be there already. then after tat i dunno wad happen my mother come in room ask mi gib my sister key n my sister msg mi scold mi why mother standin there n theres no keys.. i was really very angry. my mother tell her personally to come bak home she still angry n run away.. i really fed up n giv her key.. after i put the key not more than 10 mins she come bak home...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... one whole big round she still come bak.. scold mi till so happy... fck sia...
super not happy and she really siao.. Angry angry angry angry!!!!!!!!!!!!

today i dunno if i should feel happy sad or wad nia..

just nw giv a call to jess mummy n tell her regarding about the chalet i have book.. she say she want to have one chalet as don say that it like once in a life time.. so is ok for mi de.. but then she told mi after tat she have check from the net n is like downeast de coasta sand and pasir ris coasta sand de all fully book on the 30th.. omg.. should i say i lucky tat dear dear ask mi to book early... have actually ask jess mummy to join mi if she really cant find any chalet and she dun mind..

the other things is tat i talk to kat just nw n she told mi tat vinnie say that i like scare tat she will angry cuz i dun wan go on sun de things and i make up reason to lie to her. i where got make up nia.. i really sick ma.. n tat time u ask mi ask kat i really haven ask her ma.. tat funny.. nvm.. is ok... i knw myself can le.. no point that i explain so much.. lol.. as long as didnt really hurt mi i dun care liao...

borin day for mi today.. sian...

today take mc.. really cannot take it the stomach.. so pain nia.. dunno why.. go see doctor then doctor say my stomach a lot dirty things cuz I got constipation for very long time liao. Lol.. sound so er xin..

anyway go dear house slp n rest.. then wake up around 4 plus.. feel better le.. dear dear cook for mi for lunch… so sweet of him.. lol.. evening time we went out n go have our dinner n remember that today is our anniversary.. zzz anniversary I am sick.. cannot eat much n cannot go far.. sian nia…

but then I really enjoy myself although I am sick.. lol.. really happy that dear dear is always there when I really need him…

Today dunno why stomach damn pain. Suppose to meet Vinnie de but then damn pain dun feel like go far. So I go dear dear house n rest. And I really pig sia. Slp from 3 plus to 7 plus. Dear dear even ask mi wake up eat dinner I also dun wan wake up. End up when I wake up I tell dear tat I wan eat something.. lol.. like what dear dear say I really is a xiao zhu zhu nia.. then when I wake up I see dear dear playin wit 2 com. Lol.. one is his com playing his char. The other usin my lappy to play my char. N he like so pro really can play wit 2 char sia.. so cute.. lol.. stay at his house watch a bit show then I go bak home le.. stomach still very pain sia.. dunno why also..

Yea today dear 1st time come fetch mi. so happy. We today go to downtown east for our dinner. Cuz dear say tat he miss the food at tea valley. So we go there n have our dinner. After eating dear dear say that I should book the chalet n pay my bills nw. if really no money then he giv mi. so I listen to dear say lo.. was kinda of heart pain when I see de money is deduct from my bank.. haha.. cuz is like gone half of my pay nia. Dear dear say tat lucky I book nw cuz is like downtown de chalet on the 30th is already fully book liao. I say tat I also dun wan book at downtown there ma. Lol.. anyway book 1st also got benefit de la. It will tell mi not to spend so much. If later I spend overshot then no money pay for the chalet even worst. Walk around at the e hub but then really nth to walk.. very sian.. dunno why downtown now is all about food nia.. so borin.. slowly go home..

Reach bus stop tat time see 358 no T de I was so happy sia. Tell dear that tis is lucky as I so long neva come then 358 come n I can board de.. just when I say the bus pass by mi like tat… sian.. see the bus come n go like tat.. n tis really show tat I am not lucky.. lol…

Today suppose to meet kat they all de but then mika is sick so she not gonna meet us. So I meet Vinnie at downtown and have our dinner. And after dinner we walk around and Vinnie decided to play pool. I dun mind playin cuz actually I waitin for dear to book out to meet mi only.. but dunno why his camp always so last min de.. so hate saf.. but luckily he can book out today..

And finally Vinnie have the chance to meet up dear dear le.. lol.. if not she always wan see him also no chance to see de.

Meet dear dear at 9 plus le.. goin off with dear dear and was holding a bag of clothes cuz Vinnie have bought the clothes for mi n she say she bought it at her house downstairs de flea market. Total 5 clothes and cost $17. but then I realize tat she bough 5 actually 2 of them torn. And the other 2 is super super big size for mi.. I wonder is it in her mind I am really tat fat.. some more I think tat she get the clothes from her house. Cuz the smell of a carboard is soo strong..

Dear dear say I should not ask her buy for mi. but then if I knw earlier I also wun ask her buy liao ma.. sianz.. nvm ba.. have learn the lesson.. just treat tat $17 for a lesson?

Monday bluezzzzzzzzzzz.. super tired.. dunno why I try to slp early le but still so tired.. sianz.. what can I do to make myself lively and not tired.. sianz.. really like nothing leh.. miss SCS. Cuz even you tired but the friends there all will joke around n havin lots of fun. But then only miss the few of them only.. not all.. haha..

Hmm I think I now really cannot eat much leh.. everyday lunch always eat less than half and is like waste of food n my money.. but cannot dun eat leh. Will still hungry.. sian sia.. wonder tat how come I eat so little nowadays but then I still see nth change in my physical sia.. still look the same.. FAT. Haiz.. no wonder dear dear say that my birthday wish will neva come true. Sianz.. my wish is tat I can lose weight and it must be at least 5 to 10kg from the time I make the wish.. but then haiz.. like still long way to go nia..

Today meet Vinnie as usual at tamp.. at the century square there.. n as usual tat kat is late.. haha.. so Vinnie decided tat we will go eat 1st.. at that time suddenly I receive a msg from my father. Say what must knw how to be good all tis things.. out of no where he msg mi tis. Tis is kinda scary.. wonder what happen. Decide to call my mother and ask what happen.. my mother then say that my father only try out to sms as he is learning how to sms.. siao.. scare mi for nth.. tot wad sia..
Talk to Vinnie during eating and the kat still not yet reach. By the time we finish eating kat then reach. Lol.. she say she only wan to see the japan fair. But then the japan fair is really nth much to see and is so expensive and is like so crowded.. we just shop around a while and I go home liao..

Today we didn’t really go out but only stay at dear dear house. I also very very long no dear dear house le. And I think he miss playin maple le ba.. haha so let him play all he wan lo..

Heard from dear dear say that he will be booking out on Thursday so is like soon after I can see him again. That really great. And dear dear will only book in on Tuesday. So happy.. nw I realize tat with him by my side is such a wonderful day n time to spend. It so nice to see him..

Hmm although I get my pay already but then dun really dare to spend much cuz I still need to book chalet for my birthday. Have already decide to book on the 30 August and have decide to book at costal sand. And is like cost mi $300 plus nia. And for last month the pay I only get like $900 plus only. I still need to pay my hp bills all this.. sian leh.. maybe I should not book nw n see how long I can drag to book for it and pay my bills ba. Tml tml mon again.. sianz.. wanna stay longer at dear dear house also cant.

today dear dear morning go swimming with his mother and meet me around 1 plus at pasir ris. dear dear bring me go sakae eat as he knw that i didnt eat well for the past few weeks. Feel so happy that dear dear always think for me. I really wonder what can I do to pa y him all this things that he have do for me. Feel so happy and xin fu.

After eating lunch dear dear come my house help me in my room. Shift everythin cuz I wanna have a brand new look in my room. We have been tidying my room since 3 till about 6.

I bath le everything then go dear dear house. Watch show and everything then at night dear send me home. Although is a short day and we neva go anywhere else but is really very happy to stay with him.

Today dear dear come find me le. Finally see him. Feel damn happy when I see him. Thinking of the past when he not around with me I always get angry easily. Maybe I need more secure from him that is why I didn’t see him for so long my temper from bad become worst. We meet for dinner and is like we had our long hug before we go eat dinner. I really miss the hug and the warmth from him. He seem like become more slim le.

Dear dear actually want go food court eat de. But when he buy back the curry chicken noodles he accidentally flip and the whole bowl of noodle drop and dear dear is so pai sae. Lol cute cute de him. He say he could not see me when I change my place so he want take out phone call me then drop le. Then end up he dun want eat in the food court. So we just go around and see where can eat but all place full. All no place sit. So dear decide buy kfc and da bao go void deck eat. Dear also bought me a ice cream cake. Thanks a lot dear dear. We were happily chatting and joke around. Really miss him crack those joke and always hug me and kiss me. Really love him.

But good times always pass fast. I have to go home le. Really hope to see him longer leh. Admire joleen can stay at hongfa house during weekends to acc him. But I cant. Sianz…

Recently I watch quite a lot of show beside kangxi lai le now I start to watch back It start with a kiss 2. Omg is damn nice and touching. At first I did not watch it cuz the starting few episode is not nice and I tot is boring. Until I damn boring decide to continue then realize that it is so nice and touching. This show waste a lot of my tears. What I can say is not only the storyline is nice. Ariel Lin act till so good. The moment she cry I will also cry. Her tears so powerful sia. Joe acting also not bad. The last episodes when Zhi Shu wanna find Xiang Qing the time is really really very touching. Sad till it really pain in your heart.

Another show I now watching and have to keep waiting on every Monday is Fated to love you. Ming Zhong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni. This show also damn nice sia. Also another know how to act the actress Qiao En. She act till so poor thing in this show. Love this both 2 actress. But is really very tiring to wait till 1 week just for one episode to come leh. But I still have to tahan cuz left only a few more episode le. My everyday life at home is only on my lappy and start to watch all this show.

Tml dear dear will come find me le. Finally the day has come. Is really a torturing weeks to go.

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Tml dear dear finally book out le. For the past 3 weeks I didn’t see dear dear at all. Just too miss him le. Wonder did he eat well all this. Joleen msn me and ask how is it when didn’t see him for so long. I wonder why she ask cuz she herself also waiting for HongFa to book out also ma. She should know the feeling as well right. I not sure why she ask.


Anyway still the same, hate to go home. No one will talk to me and I really feel damn sian. Today at night I meet Vinnie at white sand for dinner and go shopping. But I have to spend lesser now cuz I need a lot of things I need to pay for. But end up I still buy things. She always spend the time walking around the shopping mall to shop for clothes. Wonder how rich she is. Lol. Today meet her and start to complain a lot about my family. Really sick and tired le. I wonder what he want actually. And thank Vinnie to be such a good listener to hear all the rubbish I say.

Dear dear ask why is it that I nowadays always meet Vinnie they all. What to do? After I start working my life start to get dull and he always at home make mi dun feel like going home. Friends that I always meet now stay at home play with their babies or feeding milk. Who willing accompany me just for the 2 hours. Dun expect ask Maggie, Nina they all come all the way to east side just to meet for dinner then I go back ba. Even I call they might not be free also. Then dear dear no need even say le. He can only book out weekends.

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he come again.. stupid him.. saywad must see my bank statement.. wtf.. nw even i spend my own money also he want to control.. is my pay my money.. i always have the right to spend n he nw wan see.. n make mi like canot spend any single cents of my pay.. wtf.. really hate him....

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