today is jess mummy birthday.. wish you a happy birthday.. n today also my chalet... from mornin i wake up go work then finish work dear dear pick me up then go bak home prepare eveything, go buy things, take care everything. i prepare finish is like already 6.30. n i tell everyone tat the party start at 6.30. was thinkin tat no one will come so early so i still can bath everything..



my family reach at about 6.45 but not a single one come.. waited till 7pm the 1st to come is vinnie.. the 2nd to come is on the 7.30 like tat.. my father keep kp me at my ears say what how come still no ppl come all tis.. zzzz.. mi mood already not there liao he still like tat kp me... zzz.. super no mood...

dear was kinda shock tat i ask me acc to a conor n he see me cry.. haha..



finally ppl come n come n come le..



thanks for all those who have come.. thanks a lot...



list of those i wanna to thanks for coming.. n see the list ytd n see was kinda different...

maggie, zac, jason, charlie, joanne, gerard, mr goh, jocelyn( was kinda surprise tat she come)

betsy, vinnie, belle & bf, liying, joycelyn & edmund, sihua, karen & bf, owner & friend, kelly' friend, xintong( was kinda surprise tat she come)

though is not what i expected de.. but somehow i still enjoy myself.. thanks n really thanks for those who turn up...

today is already consider the last day of the preparation already.. but then i still dunno who will be coming.. sian..

those who say will be coming de are:

maggie,nina, zac,jason,charlie, joyce,ai ling, su hui, joanne, mr goh,elson, serene
betsy,yati,jason,shah,jake,aisah,bernie,fuzzy,min,susi
belle,liying,joycelyn,sihua,sandra,tarzan,vinnie,joleen,nicholas,terence,karen, owner.

Total here got 34 ppl say will come.. include those who say will bring the other one to come so total add up should have about 40 ppl like tat.. then what about others?? they not comin or coming?? i also dunno..

tis is only ppl tat come on sat 30th aug.. i still got ppl comin on the 31st aug.. is on a sun..

so roughly i think i didnt count those who neva cfm wit me de.. the food should be alright i think.. cuz i roughly prepare de also about 50 ppl.. include my family n also those coming on the 31st... just hope everything is ok for me ba...

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today i listen to the radio at night.. heard that there is things tat is make a wish.. i sms to the fm.. n wish tat there is no rain on the sat itself.. i really hope tat the whole chalet wun ruin by the weather.. really.. hope my wish wil come true.. lol..

today i got the room no already.. sms everyone n e mail everyone.. but then reply de is still the same old ppl... hais.. sian.. why so sian one.. haha.. nvm.. like what other say i just enjoy myself can le... dun care about others can le..

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today i went to buy food for my chalet things.. we went to giant to buy all the food cuz my father have the voucher.. went to giant at about 9 plus.. n when we finish shop everything is already like 10 plus 11 already.. is kinda late le.. lol.. buyin food is still not a headache things.. the most headache things is tat who will be comin n who is not coming.. have been tryin to inform them 1 month early, 2 weeks b4 the chalet.. but then those who cfm already cfm.. those who neva cfm forever no cfm.. haiz.. sian.. then the food i also dunno how to cfm buy how much..

buy too little later come a lot ppl then sian.. buy a bit more later no one come then left a lot of food then even more sian... hais...

Today kinda sick.. haha.. get mc again.. lol.. anyway tis few days keep rain n rain n rain.. make me super no mood at all.. i dunno what to do if is still continue raining everyday.. what if sat also raining how.. haiz.. i now can only pray very very hard tat it wun rain... if not how.. sian..

today dear also no need go back camp.. he only book in tonight.. so he take care of me.. lol... dear dear wanna cook for me de.. but end up i was thinkin tat i so long no cook for him le so i cook for him.. lol...

after eatin i slp le.. cuz eat le medi need slp le.. lol.. just hope i will recover fast.. lol...

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today dear dear neva book out.. he need do his things.. his army things.. dunno what run de..but today dear dear mother there still doin the 7th month de.. so evening time i go help his mother.. was kinda weird.. cuz is my 1st time come here alone without dear dear acc.. but try to get myself get use to it.. haha.. finally i heard someone say tat i have change.. so happy.. lol..

bz till 11 plus then dear parents then send me home.. lol.. was kinda hungry cuz for the whole night i didnt eat any single things.. haha.. end up i go 7-11 buy food eat.. haha.. reach home already 12 plus 1... damn tired.. haha..

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today dear dear got give me a surprise.. i was kinda surprise.. really.. cuz he so long neva really give me any surprise at all.. tis time i am really surprise..

he told me tat he is in camp everything.. n i belive him cuz he say till so true like tat.. but then at about 6 he told me tat he is already waitin for mi.. i was kinda shock.. he really waitin for me.. he is not in camp but he waitin for me.. omg.. i cant belive tat dear dear now so pro in sayin lie le.. haha...

anyway thanks dear dear for givin me the surprise..

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today is really a shocking irritating days.. full of lots of news sia.. sian sian sian...

all happen actually within 1hour..

today jason gf msg mi.. say wad wan me lend her money.. lend her $20... stupid sia.. i dun even really knw her.. she wan money can ask money from jason why from me.. she say she single.. stupid.. called that jason n ask him.. realise tat he didnt go work at scs.. but go sell ice cream.. stupid sia.. ice cream got earn more than workin in office which you get pay $1600? isnt he stupid.. had scold him enough le.. was kinda of tired scoldin him.. let him be ba...

then there is tis someone who suddenly ask me something that i think only me n him knw about it.. but when he told me the things i tot it is meant to be a joke so didnt take it in heart.. suddenly ask mi is it i got tell others?? i was like zzz.. i didnt talk to her for quite sometimes le leh.. how would i tell her?? n is like i tot is only a joke didnt talk much about it also.. ask him wad happen he say nvm nth.. if really nth then why you still ask me!! sian.. n he say that some things i meant not to be knw is better.. isnt tis is somehow regardin about me?? why shouldnt i knw?? haiz.. kinda lazy to ask further more...

my mei mei kaili suddenly msn me tell mi that she cannot make it to come to my chalet.. cuz she have to take care of baby.. i was like thinkin who is it.. she told me is hers de.. which is like omg.. shocking news to me.. n her baby already 1 year old le.. n i didnt knw it.. till nw.. omg.. i last see her is like 2 years ago n now she told me she marry le n have a kid tat is already 1 year old.. woo.. i like knw all the prob n news together within an hour...

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hais.. super sians leh.. it seem like no one actually realise it at all... or is it really not tat obvious?? i really wonder.. kinda sad actually.. haha.. no one realise it.. tell my dear about it but then he say to him he saw the different in me.. but only he say n my sister they all say.. but none of them i met say it.. sianz...

but i think even i say no one will belive it also.. haha.. nvm.. just cheer up n work hard ba!!

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today is my sister de birthday.. Happy Birthday to you my dear!!.. didnt really celebrate with her.. but then did buy present for her and also treat her eat something.. lol..

anyway recently more n more ppl is asking me what i wan for my birthday present... tis quest has come to my mind a lot of times le.. but i really cant think of anything tat i wan actually..

i have actually screw my brain juice le but i still cant think of any sia..

anything that you all buy i think is really ok for me leh.. but if really wan to say an ans i think i can only say that er i dun wan de can?

anythin i think i will love it like it but then not necklace ba.. cuz kinda of allergy to the nickel... lol... so that is the only thing i cant really wear.. lol.. the rest i think all ok to me.. haha..

is it given much info le ma??

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today cant send dear dear bak camp.. cuz today i have to go attended the 7th month de dinner.. very sian.. haiz.. dunno why my parents they all like to go to the dinner place soo early.. the dinner start at 7.30 n normally it will only start at 8 plus one.. but then dunno why they wan us to reach there at 6.30pm.. stupid right.. have to wait so long..

quite early go dear dear house le.. so was spending the whole sun afternoon at his house playin maple.. lol.. as usual right.. what to do?? lol..

reach the dinner place is like so early.. have to wait n wait n wait.. finally wait till 8.30 i think the 1st dish then come.. was kinda hungry cuz tis is my 1st meal of the day.. haha..

but tis year was a bit different actually.. i 1st time heard ppl bid for the items is using chinese instead of hokkien.. at least i can understand better than dunno anything..

but after eating a few dishes i feel full liao.. lol.. kinda sian.. feel so sleepy n feel like goin home.. but cant.. by the time i reach home is already 11.30pm.. n some more is like i too full liao totally i cant slp at all... so i just watch show till i feel really very sleepy le then go slp.. by the time is already 3plus midnight le...

sian...

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today i goin to belle chalet.. today is her 21st birthday.. omg!.. so fast we all grow old le.. now everyone is 21 years old le.. thinking of next 2 weeks will be my turn le.. kinda excited..

reach the chalet at about 7.15pm.. n realise that she have invited soo many friends and relatives.. omg.. she have book 2 chalet room... wa seh.. really cant compare leh.. i only book one room.. lol.. that is the difference between rich n poor? wahaha.. anyway.. was there alone cuz didnt see any familiar face.. lucky got dear dear accompany me.. if not i think i will be soo boring..

at about 8 liying call n say she will reach about 5 more mins.. lol.. lucky she is here.. if not i think i feel weird.. lol..

belle today wear till so formal n so nice.. when the time is up.. lol.. she gonna cut her cake.. n realise that her cake is so special.. omg.. *envy*

i think mine chalet compare to hers de really nothing leh.. b4 i go off.. mi n liying roughly counted that total she invited got at least 60ppl... wooo that is a lot sia.. i think i got 40 ppl come i happy liao sia...

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today goin to jess mummy house.. to see keith and also see her.. plus don also sick.. get chicken pox.. go see him also.. anyway.. keith grow bigger le.. woo.. lol..

today wait for dear dear book out n meet me.. we go tgt.. haha.. dear dear also very long or should i say neva even see keith b4? lol..

when we reach there keith is slpin.. but a while later he wake up le.. n he keep staring at dear dear.. haha.. like was thinkin where he come from.. lol.. dear dear too dark le so keith keep using those question mark face lookin at dear dear wonder who is he.. lol..

keith today drinking milk keep crying n like get distracted easily.. dunno what happen to him..

when we go off jess mummy msg mi tell mi tat when he drink milk he also poo-ing.. ke lian de keith..

next baby i gonna visit will be yun wen de evan le.. lol.. next tues.. evan even more longer no see him le.. have at least 2 months.. he must grow even bigger le i think..

next tues for sure i will take pic of him de..

too bad today neva take keith cuz he slpin then keep making noise while he drink milk.. so neva take.. will take it next time when i see him again..

Today suppose to go find yun wen de.. but then i totally forget about it.. all i was thinkin of goin home only.. haha.. so sorry my dear gal..

today also very boring leh.. sian.. i start to count down liao.. haha..

18 more days to go.. haha.. anyway.. was still kinda of preparing and thinkin of who will be going.. cuz till now not many ppl cfm with me.. sian..

like tat i dunno how much food i should buy sia.. lol..

today have solve the problem with dear dear le. i really dun wish to quarrel with him anymore.. i really hate tat feeling... hope really everything ok.. and should be fine..

dear dear kept his promise and today he bring me go watch movie.. money no enough2.

That show not bad actually.. but dunno why only got 1 star given.. i think maybe this show like asking singaporean to go for riot and anyhow sing de singapore song.. haha.. maybe.. who knw...


but there is this one part where by everyone is laughin but I am not.. The part when the grandmother keep forgetting she have ask. And she keep asking her son that have he eaten and say he reach home already arh all tis.. I didn’t laugh at all.. Cuz I knw exactly tis really happen in real life.. my grandmother is like tat.. she always forget that she have eaten and also when we go bak malaysia she will keep givin us water whereby we already have our water and is she gave it to us de.. i didnt laugh but that part i feel like crying.. the whole show really quite touching at the bak and only show the grandmother i really feel sad n touching..


after watching I went bak home le then dear dear go bak camp.. Sian.. Really having Monday blue.. Think I will slp early tonight ba.. See how.. Lol… cuz now a lot show watching.. Got the hot shot and fated to love you and also the bang bang tang de show.. all are quite nice.. will vote for fated to love you No 1.

I really dun understand.. Dun understand why is this is happening nw… totally dun understand wad I wan… all I wan is actually very very simple.. N I tot that all gals would also like it n hope their bf will do tat to them.. I am just a normal gal n want like a normal gal.. am i asking too much??? all i need is only that when i really angry you will there to make me happy n make me laugh.. isnt tis is call "hong". when you angry you wan me to "hong" u.. then wad about when i angry?? what did you do?? i really dunno.. u were at there in your fierce tone talkin to me.. like that i will feel happy?


i really dunno.. n what i wan is surprise... i belive all gals like surprise.. i didnt get the surprise at all.. when i reach home i did not change at all.. waiting to see will you sms mi or call me to tell me that you are nw at my house downstairs.. i waited till 11 but you only call to see where am i n then hang up the phone.. i dunno why.. always say that i neva tell you all tis.. but i do always hint you.. but did you get it?? i always giv you surprise n tell you that surprise is a thing that most gals like it.. but then u really gib mi a surprise by not doing anything..


i knw that a lot of things i cant blame you like your army things.. but i did not blame you at all also... i only not happy the things u do n decide.. u nw even blame mi that i was the one who insist you to go home.. but if u really wanna come to meet me, you will just come no matter what i say am i right?? i really dunno why.. it seem like all is my fault.. i like always the one who is wrong.. i admit that my temper is not good but i do have the sense of what things is right n what is wrong.. i didnt talk in a manner that is angry n u insist.. what can i say n do what you have presume n insist everythin that u think it is.. just keep quiet n u say me.. at the mean time u say about me do you think that yourself always doin the same thing also?? u always didnt tell me what you thinking..


u ask me if i have regret.. if i really have regret i long time ago have already regret.. i will not always thinkin of our future all tis.. i really hate sayin all tis.. it will sound like i wanna get marry so fast but you have not prepare anythin.. i knw nw is still not the time.. but pls dun ever say i regret..

today is national day but to me is a very very boring n sad day..

in the mornin dear dear da bao mac breakfast for mi cuz ytd he promise to buy for mi de.. so we slack n watch some show till around 1 i gonna to bath cuz we actually wanna watch movie.. but then suddenly dear phone ring.. n was like dunno what activate.. he need to go back camp... was so sad.. cuz is like we suppose to go out n enjoy my long weekends..but then is like zzzzzzzzzzzz.. what the................. but what can i do??? ask him dun go bak meh.. very sian.. today have to stay at home again.. we was like still thinkin after movie go watch fire work de.. nw everythin gone.. shit him..


at night around 8 dear msg mi say that he goin to book out soon n ask mi to check the timing for the movie show... so i have check n it start at 9.15pm... when he msg mi that he can book out soon i have change n get myself ready to go out anytime... but then after tat i have check that there no way to make bookin for dte the cinema de shi hou.. dear say then tml then watch lo.. then i ask go where? he say just stay around my blk lo.. i was like thinkin what so nice stay at my area?? in that case he might as well go home n we dun meet since we not goin anywhere.. so after tellin him n he decide to meet tml.. i change bak my clothes n feel that i am like a fool.. for wat i get prepare so early n end up also neva go out at all..

end is like today i end up keep stayin at home whole day n slp the whole day...

nw tryin to learn to ingore my dad.. whatever he say just shut up your ear... that is the only way i can do.. if not i really dunno wad to do already..

i really dunno what is the prob wit him.. i spend my own money to celebrate my own birthday n didnt use any single money from him n yet he still scold like nobody biz.. i really dunno why must he like tat.. i spending money is jus to get happy for myself also cant.. wtf!!!!!!!

today is national day eve.. dear dear manage to book out early today.. so we decided to go to expo to go see the metro sales.. as jane say that there got sell portable gas stove...

we take mrt down n realise that there is a lot ppl sia.. dunno why also.. dear dear say cuz today fri will be a lot ppl goin to the metro sales.. n i was thinking like huh?? very sian as i dun really like to squeeze.. but then when we went in to the hall.. is like sooo quiet.. not a lot ppl inside leh.. lol.. so we go one round n ask the sales person there if they got sell portable gas stove.. they say they neva sell that at all.. hmm.. nvm ba.. what to do... so we shop around for my sisters present and also belle presents.. as today is my elder sister birthday n on the 16 is belle de n 19 is my younger sister de birthday... so have to spend money n buy.. nw mi really consider broke liao.. hais.. i no money left soon.. lol.. anyway shop for very long hours to think what to buy for them.. finally gotta everythin n left at around 9.15pm... lol... really shop quite long...

sometimes i do really feel very lonely... that is no one i can really talk to n i can meet up n listen to my complains n a lot of things.. to my family i may have a lot of friends.. but to mi i feel so left out.. since sec sch i always the one who always left out...

nw is better at least i really stil have some friends.. but my those some friends are all nw married and bz with their kids.. they have their own prob nw n where will have the time to talk to mi n really listen to mi... if not my other friends will be bz with their sch work n also for quite sometimes didnt contact at all...

as for my dear.. tat no need say le.. he always in camp n although always say that weekends we can meet n can always sms.. but do we really weekends always meet?? do he really have time for mi? i can really say ever since he in ns we didnt really go out.. we most of the time will only stay at his house.. why is it so?? i remember for quite some times i was quite angry cuz we actually decided to go somewhere but then end up still at his house. he say he in ns very tired n dun feel like goin out.. so what can i do?? be unreasonable???

hais.. dun even ever talk about my family le.. there is no way that i can talk or stay at home...

i really hate to be alone..

today dear dear cannot book out.. super sianz... so end up the whole day i was like at home slpin.. slp till like a pig.. n is like when i wake up. watch show.. help dear dear play maple.. help him lvl almost the same like his friends... then after tat at night i was like keep watching show.. soo boring... feel so restless.. also dun wish to write blog... haha.. ok.. done... tat all i gonna write...

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