today i wake up damn early n sleepy.. wake up at 7.15am .. n quickly go bath all tis...cuz dear gonna book out anytime.. n i almost late.. lol.. when i on bus 39 dear msg me that he nw gonna book out le i was like huh.. sian.. then i have to give him surprise at yishun le.. lol... very sian.. when i reach i so worry that he might gone le.. haha.. then i waited and i finally saw him but he didnt see me at all.. lol... he just walk away.. as usual.. i knw he wun see me de.. he always look straight at ppl de.. he only look at road and way only.. haha..

so i at behing hug him n i can see he was shock then surprise then happy de expression.. haha.. so cute.. wahaha....

after all this we went to long john n hav breakfast with dear.. very long neva eat breakfast with him le..

havin a lot fun n happiness wit dear... I really hope the time will stop here..

today dear dear cannot book out cuz he having a lot of duties almost everyday for this 1 whole week... poor dear dear.. hais.. but lucky things is i no need hide around le.. woohoo.. can just go in and out my house freely..

but today did go out a while then go back home le.. super tired n sleepy but end up nw already 2.35am le i still haven slp.. lol.. n worst things is tml morning i have to wake up at around 7am like tat.. cuz i gonna give dear a surprise... lol... i gonna go his camp there fetch him.. very long neva fetch him le... thInk i better faster go slp.. if not tml sure cant wake up sia...

today i did meet jason and the other 2 guys which is gab n han... with my sister also..

today after work i meet my sister eat dinner tgt.. then also meet my friend jason... my ex-collegue... haha.. super damn long no see him le.. then we were sitting at mac keep gossip with my sister also cuz they same company de.. haha..

n i realise that i leave that company the whole company become so dramatic leh.. haha.. regret leavin there... wahaha.. jokin jokin.. i enjoy my work life nw.. lol..

kinda sian.. dun feel like goin home but still have to. tml meeting jason my sister and other of their collegue that i neva see b4 de??? lol.. they cuz of me change the venue to pasir ris park instead of east coast.. so no matter what i have to go?? lol..

The feeling is suck when you got a home but unable to go home early... cant go home early is still ok as i get use le.. but the prob is i have to go home secretly and also always have to hide in my mom room 1st.. hais.. sian.. then every morning have to wake up earlier than normal just to avoid.. hais... is this really a home for me?

is there anyway i can just live normally without having all this prob??? hais.. who willing to help me then??

Oh ya.. thanks joycelyn for there with me this few days to acc me eat dinner? lol.. anyway thanks mummy always help me look out for him in order to let me go home... hais hais.. what should i do?? i cant curse n swear also.. hais..

today have just added new list to me wishlist and clear my wish list.. so we see when we can complete it again.. but this time de mission even more hard.. haha..



Not yet complete:



1) Singapore Flyer

2) Camping



New added list:



1) Go malaysia 1 day tour with dear

2)Go bintan/ batam

3)Go bangkok

4)Go Taiwan

5)Go Japan



wahaha!!! is more hard right? Is there anymore?? Cant remember le.. will add on again if we think so it.. lol

Today i have make a very hard decision.. this is really very hard.. i knw tis wil hurt someone but if i do that this can protect me n my mother... i have no choice but to make decision.. hais.. i gettin more n more fed up le.. i dun wish to be alone.. i really hate the feeling that i got a home but have to stay outside alone by myself.. hais...

Today we have make another wishlist down.. yes.. we finally go pulau ubin le.. yea.. reach there about 12 noon.. came back around 6 plus le.. was very nice experience.. but come back got a lot welcome bite by the mosquito there.. damn itchy sia.. lol.. but then me n dear dear really enjoying ourself...





after pulau ubin we went back tamp to dear house.. but b4 that we went to buy my phone.. have decided to buy phone instead of psp 1st.. cuz my hp spoil le.. have to buy phone 1st.. i have bought W910I.. is 2nd hand phone so kinda cheap.. i no need too ex de phone.. just a phone that can sms n call de can le.. haha...

Today meet dear dear after work.. we decided to go to Labrador park... woohoo... cuz at 1st meetin maggie they all but maggie last min say she got something on so have to cancel.. so we decided to go labrador park.. n yes.. in my wishlist one more down.. yes.. haha.. took a lot of pic with dear.. was very happy..

picture as below..

Today Finally is friday le.. yea yea.. wahaha.. n yes... we go with our plan to go swimming.. wahaha... but then is not tat fun actually cuz too many ppl le.. is at night plus is fri and is sch holiday.. super lots of ppl nia.. sian.. but i do enjoy cuz we really very long time neva go swimming le.. thanks dear dear.. hehe.. so sweet of him...

today dear told me that he manage to get off on fri as he need to go to TP to see if he is able to go for this year enrollment not.. so he have plan to go swimming with me on fri cuz we very long neva go swimming tgt le.. wahaha.. yes..

dear say if can sat we go pulau ubin then sun we go labrador park.. hopefully we can go with the plan.. cuz eveytime we plan de thing always neva come true de..

tml is just another boring day.. today dear told me that he cannot book out on thurs and fri.. hais.. cuz he have to go for sch le.. so he have to save all the off days and leave days so that he have to claim for his sch days in april.. sian.. hais.. tot of meeting him and was still planning where to go but now cannot.. hais..

nvm... for dear future sake i have to tahan.. if not hard nia..hais.. jyjy HONGYI!!!

Today didnt go anywhere actually.i was reading all e mails that i think is meaningful n funny de.. haha.. suddenly i read one of this e mail that joycelyn send me de.. is about the childhood things.. n i almost jump.. no la.. cuz i still got a lot of those things that when i was young all those things that i still have with me.. i love keepin a lot of stupid things de.. i think this i learn from my mother de.. haha.. my mother always keep a lot of things at home and always get scolded by my dad.. nw is me.. wahah.. here are some pic...



nw got a lot x box, wii, psp, D/S.. i also got nitendo leh.. the biggest one... haha.. this one is put diskette de.. i still have both diskette.. but all cannot use de liao.. lol... this at least got 15years old liao i think...





all these casette at least also got 10 over years.. all this are album lai de leh.. also got my own album leh.. dun play play sia.. lol...









this bus ticket i think really got at least 15 to 17 years liao sia.. haha...




the rest though not very long but i belive can be part of my 古董.. haha.. this are almost all the movie ticket i have been watching.. got some are from year 2000 till nw de.. got 9 years le also.. also got concert ticket i have go de.. like the ever 1st concert i go is jay concert which is on year 2003... wooo..





and this is really my childhood.. my lovely power ranger.. haha... i ca still remember de names.. wooo

today i wake up slighty early.. haha.. cuz dear dear come straight to my house and we wanna eat breakfast tgt de.. but then end up i can only manage go out earliest 10.56am.. and there go our mac breakfast.. hais.. wasted.. haha.. nvm... we can try other time.. haha.. so sian.. so we end up go straight to dear dear house.. today they goin to bring me n dear dear go to bedok the condo to take a look.. cuz i heard dear say that his dad prefer the bedok de new condo (cant remember the condo name liao) than livia cuz of the transport wise.. bedok should be better afterall as in bedok housing all ex de.. haha..

so around 1 plus 2 we set off.. reach there n there really a lot ppl even though is raining.. i see the show room n got a feeling.. i think livia de seem to be more big than here de.. but then the location wise bedok maybe better... n the balcony seem bigger than livia.. haha.. i dunno... just look only.. haha.. there is also 2 room de leh.. i nw then realise.. haha..

then after tat we went to sembawang.. there is nothing much for the new shopping mall leh.. like so sian de.. we eat our lunch at 4 plus.. haha.. after eatin we went to geylang there.. cuz they wanna buy tua huey... they say that place nice de.. haha.. was so tired n fall asleep in the car.. haha..

hais.. today the day past so fast.. sian.. today is the only day meet dear dear.. hais.. so sian.. but lucky dear dear will book out on thurs.. lol.. good... haha

today so boring.. hais.. sian.. today dear dear neva book out.. at 1st wanna stay at home n slp the whole day till maggie msg me see if wanna meet not.. but then suddenly jess mummy msg me say she also boring at home.. ask me go find her.. then i was like thInkin ok la.. better than stayin at home.. so i meet her after work.. i go home 1st to do housework... then go her house le.. at 1st wanna go out de.. but then suddenly it rains.. not able to bring keith out.. so end up we neva go out.. but today i watch indian show.. wahaha.. the show name called Khrish.. I think is like tat spell ba.. was too boring.. i watch from 4 plus n the show end around goin 7.. very funny show but ok la overall.. the whole show almost all the place shoot in singapore.. i didnt knw tat.. haha... after tat msg maggie to see if we still meeting cuz is already 7 le.. .so ended we msg each other till goin 8 le.. then decided not to meet le.. cuz by the time maggie come down tamp already 8.30 plus plus.. n i have to go off latest 11.. then is like a while only.. i dun wan later maggie come down only a while then have to go back like so boring.. so end up we not meetin le.. so sorry maggie ya..

hais.. after a so called "long weekends" today i am simply sooo lazy to work and do things.. haiz.. so tired.. hw i wish that i am still able to slp whole day.. i am still not yet fully recover yet but have no choice.. hav to come work.. if not i no money at all also like tat.. haha..

today i just stare at the blank and try to do something tat is really urgent de.. if not sure get scolded de.. haha.. reach home i just quickly go back to slp le.. damn tired.. n still feel sick.. dunno when can get recover.. this few days miss my dear damn much... sian...

omg!!! i have been sick, having high fever for the past 3 days.. all along i having fever of average 38degree.. god.. haha



sat i dunno what happen to me.. early morning i wake up i feel so sick.. but dun feel like takin mc at all.. cuz only work half day.. but when i reach office i totally feel damn weak.. dun feel like moving n also feel so sleepy.. so i keep doze off.. haha.. the whole office saw me all knw tat i am sick.. haha.. my manager request my boss to let me go off early.. but only manage to go off at 12.. like no diff cuz i finish work at 1.. but to me is already better than nothin...



finally tahan till 12, i pack le then took cab down to dear dear house.. he bought me porridge but i only eat 3 mouth i dun wan le.. i super weak till dun feel like moving so i go slp.. was very very touched by dear.. cuz all the way i was slpin from 1 like tat till 8 plus 9pm.. all the way dear dear put wet towel on my head, then change the towel again n put it on my head again.. then i start coughin badly he change the towel n wipe my hands n face... so sweet of him.. i knw he did all tis to me.. but i was just too weak to move le..



when i wake up around 8 plus 9, i feelin better le.. then go out buy dinner wit dear dear.. suddenly my eye vision was very blur n i cant hear anythin.. the only thing i knw is to sit down.. then dear saw le also scare dao.. ask me quickly go home.. he hold me tight cuz he scare i will just drop.. haha.. reach his house.. eat a few mouth then i dun wan eat again le... dun feel like eatin.. ask dear for thermometer n realise my temperature is 38.9 degree.. wo.. tat mean in the afternoon i am worst than tat..



go back home n slp the whole night.. sun morning wake up i feel better le.. morning my temperature is only 36 degree plus plus... but till at night when send dear back camp my temperature went up again till 38.4 degree.. sian.. feel sian again...

ytd wake up morning i feel so tried n weak decided to take mc e.. if not like sat not nice also. so in the afternoon i go see the doctor... n he told me i high fever n he took my temperature is like 39.7degree.. wahaha...this 4 days my only job is to slp slp slp slp slp... all i knw is slp.. i not eve eating much thing... so sian. dunno for what i suddenly got high fever for so many days.but thanks dear dear who always there for me...

Finally i have come to a conclusion le.. i decided not to study le.. haha.. you may think i am stupid enough.. but RP till nw is still not tat recognise at all.. so what the different between study private n RP? since i got dip cert liao so i really dun see the need why i still get the dip cert and waste 3 more years.. if i study RP and then my result is still the same so suck i might as well use my MDIS cert which still can be seen one.. although is a waste la.. but then hor what can i do.. i might as well save the money go study degree.. haha.. decided le.. lol.

today after work go find jess mummy... super tired... i was at jess mummy house.. i play with baby keith.. he as usual sooo cute.. haha.. i took a video for keith n he nw knw how to clap n take off his clothes by his own.. wahaha... so cutee...

anyway got time then show the clip ba.. lol...

today have to help dear dear check for his JPAE result.. but then have to wait till 2 pm.. dunno why must wait till so late de sia.. sian..

finally after lunch i quickly rush bak n help dear dearto check the result... and guess what... wahaha.. he manage to get into TP course.. logistic management.. wohooo.. was happy for him.. maggie actually ask about me.. but at 1st i dun wanna check de.. cuz i apply only for fun de.. so i also dun feel like checking.. so wait till it really come then say.. but maggie keep asking why dun wan see.. i help u see la.. make me got the urge to see liao.. once i log in to the JPAE website, I was damn shock.. i manage to get into a poly.. but sad to say is in RP supply chain management.. i am so confused right nw.. i am not sure should i study not.. hais.. 1 thing tat i thinkin is about my father.. hais.. sian.. dear say that it is all my choice.. study and not study also got good n no good.. hais.. i also knw ma.. sian..

What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
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What type of personality do you have?

Self-centeredYou are self-centered. People around you get tired of trying to please you all the time. You don't care how others feel and everything has to be done your way - this is why you don't have very many friends. Deep down, however, the real you is quite a nice person, and when you like someone, you can be very sincere. So try to think less about yourself and you will eventually be a more popular person.

The Real You



Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

View maggie blog and saw this so try it out.. n realise is not tat zhun leh.. wahaha...

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.