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这么回到当时谈恋爱的感觉

2009-12-16T22:38:00.003+08:00

要这么回到当时谈恋爱的感觉，是不是在一起越久就越把对方当成理所当然呢？我真的不明白为什么回不去当时的感觉。体贴，细心，照顾都没有了。原来时间真的能过把一个人给改变。也可以把一个人当作理所当然的。不是有人说女朋友应该是疼惜的吗？刚开始我还有那种感觉但现在没有了。难道是我变了。要求更多了吗？

也许吧。环境吧我给改变了。我不想做一个女强人。我需要的是有人能过在我最需要的时候出现在我身边，需要帮忙的时候都会在一旁帮我。

但是在我最需要人陪伴我，帮助我的时候你都不在。我真的很累了。一直要假装很坚强。。

4年真的很久。但这4年也改变了你，更是改变了我。有句话说women's need is emotional needs 我完全赞成。我最需要的needs你多没给我。要是说我没能跟你沟通，我都给了很明确的暗示了你都没反应。我还能这么办？我不想再想了。不想再吵了。多说也没用了

人人多把你当成好好先生，都认为是我在欺负你。但是谁能了解我？

累了。我真的累了。

2009-10-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

today saw something funny and weird.

the gal in the middle hold her bf hand and hold her friend(gal) hand. If you were the bf what will you think? if you are the friend dun you feel weird and let them be? seriously tis pic is really funny...

can you imagine that you are the gf but your bf is holding another guy friend hand at the same time holding your hand? ok. dun say guy... just say sister or some gal friends... dun u find it damn weird?? haha...

2009-08-19T17:27:00.004+08:00

today is my sister birthday.. help her celebrate birthday.. cuz no matter what is her 21st birthday.. i really do not have the extra money to give her ex ex de present so i bought a cake for her cuz i neva buy a cake for her b4... n all the way she want is just a birthday cake. so i buy for her lo.. lol... we celebrated after our class.. anyway no lesson wil be goin on... so we request from the teacher that we will be goin off early.. around 8.30pm meet my mother at elias mall de mac there.. we sit at one corner n we help my sister celebrate her birthday.. the cake that bought is the same from last year i bought for myself de.. lol... the yummy cake... lol...

though today is my sister birthday but i also got prezzie from my mother n elder sister.. lol... so good hor.. lol...

photos below.. my sister have not taken much photos with me... tis is the one that she willing take a lot.. wahaha... really very long time neva enjoy with my sisters n mother le...

see my mother beautiful smile again...

the key de is my younger sister de.. the bear is mine de..

2009-08-18T09:44:00.003+08:00

last sat which is on the 15 aug 09 after my work i go to dear house le..

around 4.30 we left his house n set off te to meet Mr Goh, and Mr Liew.. seriously at 1st i dunno what is it regarding about.. i only saw the msg that mr goh send saying that got money earn so i just go lo.. .maggie, joycelyn and charlie will be goin also.. lol.. weird combination hor.. lol... we reach there exactly at 5 but the rest not here yet.. so me n dear help up to se tup everythin n try to discuss about it.. but seriously the bossy dun like... he got the face of attitude and is like i still not decided whether i goin to work for him not n he already using a order tone and order me do this do tat.. i was like wth... at 1st i didnt knw he the boss so is kinda of annoy me... nw i knw it even feel worst. .anyway talk about the biz things, i really think is ok for me to try.. but i dun think the job is meant for me... so all the work time seem to be weekdays day time... n i still have to work... no choice i think i hav to give up. .but i think dear can make it ba... lol...

after disucssion, went to simpang bedok.. i neva been there b4 though i have hear of it a lot of times le.. nw finally have been here le... dunno what to eat so dear help me order nasi ayam... taste to me ok.. lol.. not tat bad like charlie n dear say de.. lol... took some pic without anyone notice again.. opps.. should say hav but they dun care.. lol...

after eatin we left the place with charlie to dear house there n we chit chat n gossip a lot of things..

i nw then realise that guys really can chat a lot n gossip a lot like gals too.. lol...

2009-08-17T01:00:00.002+08:00

last 2 weeks me n dear dear got movie marathon.. lol.. we have watch total of 4 movie in one week.. lol... that a lot hor.. lol... cuz dear parents got free movie ticket so we just go watch like no one biz like tat lo.. lol....

on the 2nd aug we watch ice age 3, then follow by monday we watch overheard, then fri we watch G.I Joe.. then sat we watch UP...

among this 4 i like the most is UP then G.I joe..

i believe dear like G.I joe 1st... cuz guys sure like those fightin show then funny n touching show..

Up got 3d but we cant watch 3d for the timing so no choice lo... but we watch Ice age 3 for 3D.. lol...

next upcoming dear dear wanna watch distict 9 and i wan to watch final destination... i still remember that final destinatio 1 i didnt watch, n when i was 16 i go watch FD 2 with li ying.. lol.. that is my 1st gross movie that i have watch... then FD 3 is me n dear dear 1st dating de shi hou watch de.. nw part 4 le... have been waiting gross movie after watching bloody valentine... lol...

2009-08-16T10:17:00.002+08:00

on the 9 of august is national day.. but also a memorable day for jk cuz is her rom day.. she have ask me to be her emcee... lol... she daring enough to ask me to do. lol.. .not worry i crash the whole thing... lol... really congrats to my dear friend joycelyn.. picturs is all over in the fb.. wahaha... lots of comments n my mail always flood with fb e mail.. lol...

CONGRATS MR & MRS LEW!!!

2009-08-13T01:03:00.001+08:00

ytd me n dear dear have decided to create a blog that both of us will update de.. so today i have created it le.. lol.. but no worry ya.. i will still update in here de.. lol.. but maybe slowly slowly will not le i think.. lol.. searching for my blogskin during office hour.. lol.. get scolded by my manager for nothing.. ask me y i never send e mail to my agent whereby i have send long time ago le.. sian.. nwadays think she pms nia.. lol..

anyway finally done my the other blog with dear dear le.. but the skin i still dun like... lol... slowly find till i wan de then change ba.. lol...

my new blog: http://intheworldoftwo.blogspot.com/

2009-08-12T12:10:00.002+08:00

oh god.. i have been quite sometimes i did not update my blog.. really long enough.. lol.. i am simply lazy n i have been watching show... n some more in my house right nw i cant use my comp too much.. no choice..

anyway i think i gonna lump everything tgt.. wahaha.. see how much i can remember.. lol...

11 July 09

Is a sat.. lol.. is the day of jess mummy de sister in law wedding and we were invited to attend to her wedding.. lol.. was happy and excited.. lol.. i can actually see that her sister in law put in a lot of effort to put it a very memorable day.. n i love the video most... really very nice.. very touching de.. lol... n me n dear dear have taken quite a no of pics tgt.. hehe.. a tiring day cuz after work i just came down here..

17 July 09

today i meet maggie cuz she wanna go do medicure with me.. but who knw hougang mall there de biz too good liao.. too good till can reject customers de.. lol.. no choice so go eat dinner with her at long john... then later night maggie bro came n we went to geylang fetch her sister n tour around at geylang.. lol.. neva tour b4 then.. lol.. but nothin much to see as the night is still young.. lol.. then maggie suggest to go mustafa center since i neva been there b4.. lol.. we really havin a lot of fun down there ni bought a packet of cracker then we headed for our supper dim sum.. thanks maggie for the treat..

18 July 09

today suppose to celebrate our friend "charlie" birthday, n maggie n me had take the effort to paln for him nicely but seem like everything not goin on smoothly.. b4 meetin maggie n so, me n dear meet zac at tamp for dinner. was kinda surprise that he willing to came down.. n we did chat a lot n talk a lot of nonsense.. zac ask when we were young do we play out loud our music my phone.. then i ask him, when we young our phone can play music de meh??lol.. then he say wa lao dun make us like we so old leh.. lol...

after dinner we meet maggie at ps n waiting for charlie to reply.. n finally only left the 3 of us.. n then dear suddenly suggest tat we go for a drink.. then we walk to dunno where n we drink..lol.. consider 1st time i drink with dear n maggie.. once again, we enjoy ourself despite of some reason tat make us unhappy.. lol...

(pictures i too lazy post le.. anything can see maggie blog.. wahaha.. all the pic she post le.. if not my fb also can.. lol..)

2009-08-12T12:09:00.002+08:00

19 July 09

Dear dear today bought a phone which is sumsung jet.. wooo.. seem to be nice to use also.. lol... can see dear dear quite like it also even though he didnt say much things at all... anyway i really wanna get the same phone with my dear also.. lol...

20 July 09

today suppose to have tuition but end up she cant make it.. so wanna meet dear dear de.. but he got presentation.. have to wait till 9 like tat then can meet dao him.. lol.. remember tat time we quarrel about money wise nw we eating porridge tgt.. lol.. but still the expensive one..

24th July 09

today i finally got the same phone with dear dear le.. thanks dear for tat.. really love it a lot.. after buying the phone go back to dear house. not long after dear say his friend andy wanna meet him to go for a drink.. lol.. we have been drinking tis 2 weeks nia.. lol... anyway his friend is funny.. lol... around 1 like tat i go back home 1st n dear dear n his friends continue to drink..

30th July 09

my last lesson of this personal effectiveness module.. n dear dear have been bz with his projects.. n i am sick too.. since tues till nw.. oh god.. dunno whether to take mc not..

31st July 09

decided to take half day leave to see doctor n i manage to get 2 days mc.. today n tml.. but today i have to go back 1st to finish my things.. cuz month end liao.. no choice have to do all quickly 1st.. n like tat i can rest tml also.. if not worst also.. lol... by right today gonna go for interview but i didnt go.

1st August 09

today i slp till 2 plus then i wake up.. lol.. very long time i didnt slp till so late on sat de.. i think i really should find a job tat is only 5 days work.. if not will die nia.. lol..

2009-07-07T23:39:00.002+08:00

i miss my mother a lot now.. really miss her badly... miss her laughing loudly.. miss her every morning come n tickle me and ask me stupid quest in the early morning.. miss her asking me how to play facebook.. really miss her... although i still meet her every week but i still miss her very very badly.. i miss my mother cook yam for me.. i miss her come into my room and talk to me.. i miss her every sun asking me if i wan to eat.. i miss her nagging at me... i miss her telling me something stupid yet funny.. i miss her telling me not to slp so late everyday.. i miss all the things that she do to me.. really miss her..

妈咪我好想你！！！

2009-07-05T23:30:00.003+08:00

today finally move to hougang le.. thanks mummy n jie n dear dear help me carry my things to the place.. unstuff everything and meet jess mummy cuz her sister in law is gettin marry this coming sat.. lol...

it had been a long time i see baby keith le.. n he grow much more bigger than last time... n as usual he is still so cute.. lol.. nw he is trying to walk le.. and he knw more what other ppl is talkin nw.. so cute of him...

tonight is another diff night for me.. spending night with i dunno anyone.. hais.. kinda sian.. hopefully i can get use to tis type of living...

2009-07-04T23:18:00.002+08:00

at 1st today goin to move to hougang de.. then end up change to tml.. then maggie house today also got ppl staying at her house.. so no choice today have to thInk somewhere to go.. and thanks dear dear for acc me... really thanks dear dear

2009-06-30T23:11:00.001+08:00

Have been staying at maggie house for 1 week le... really great appreciate maggie and her family.. It is like very morning have to wake maggie up to help me open de door for me and also every morning seem like i use the toilet like interupt them like tat.. lol.. but then stayin with maggie is really fun.. she really make me like stayin at my own house...

this coming monday i will be moving to hougang le.. hope every thing will be fine.. lol.. just simply tired and now more stress... have to think more nw le.. is not like last time le.. lol.. anyway really thanks maggie for all things...

2009-06-26T11:47:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday my dear dear.. today is dear dear actual day birthday.. happy birthday.. today i go out have a celebration with dear and his poly friends.. dear have change le.. he mix well with his poly friends.. not like when we are in ite time.. he always so quiet.. now seem like the whole class know him n get well with him... that is good.. his friend all also happening de.. see them like tat i thInk of my sec sch time.. oh no.. i cant dun admit that i am old liao.. lol..

the moment go in to the bbq there they all shouted so loud 大嫂(sister-in-law), i was like sooooo pai sae nia.. though i knw they having fun but ok la.. still feel weird.. lol.. what maggie say is right... poly life is always so happening n look at me.. i was an old women liao.. lol..

some pic::

2009-06-23T11:32:00.001+08:00

yawn!! damn tired.. last night slp at 12 plus wake up 4 plus.. damn damn tired... cant take it liao... dunno how to go work... sure no energy nia..

after work go for my dance lesson then meet dear at tamp.. suppose go to vinnie house take a look.. who knw they like anyhow anyhow charge nia... bth... decide not to go there le.. but most impt is tonight i go where?? maggie.. thanks maggie for the help... i really appreaciate... really.. thanks a lot...

better find somewhere so that i will not keep trouble maggie... she help me a lot already.. should not keep trouble her le.. once again.. thanks maggie and family...

2009-06-22T10:45:00.000+08:00

today there a new show happening in pasir ris? early morning the place is so crowded... this gal with her sister acc her parents go to the bank cuz their father wanna give back the mother money as the mother decide to get divorce anytime.. in the bank itself the father already keep scolding n scolding.. but what he actually scold is like if i not wrong is tat he think he got no face. cuz the mother seem to be insist to close down the joint acc.. then he keep scolding the both sister whereby they try to explain to him that if he close down the joint acc is better for him also.. then after withdraw the money, they step out of the bank and the father start to scold even more loud. the younger sister took out a so called contract i think so. n ask the dad to sign it. the contract seem to be like saying that the money has already given to the mother or what i also not tat clear also.. anyway, the father was damn angry and throw the paper on the floor n scold the younger sister. sayin that she dun give him face. (i was like thinking? what face he wan?) then he walk away. the 3 ladies follow behind. then the father still scolding whilewalking. then suddenly he turn around n seem to get more agitated and scold the younger sister. then the older sister walk up n try to explain to the father that saying that the contract is also meant good for him.. but he suddenly yell as loud as he can. (i dunno what he yell also, i was shock too!)

the elder sister turn around n saw everyone looking at them n scold the father "we did nothing wrong, everything we do also not wrong, what the hell you shout. crazy!"

then the gal walk away.. the mother and the younger sister chase after her. the father follow behind. then he scold her say that " u everyday always early go out late come back did you ever treat this as your house"

the gal reply" we all always late go home is cause of who. if not you everyone will go home early"

then the next moment i saw is that the father come close to the gal n hit her.. (oh god, in the public leh, n everyone is lookin at them)

the gal said: hit some more la. the police station is just over there.

after some argument which i cant remember then

the father shout " dun ever come back"

the gal shouted back "dun worry i wil not come back.

2009-06-21T10:39:00.000+08:00

today is fathers' day.. and wish all the fathers had a good n happy day today.. haha.. just today only... wahaha... anyway today help dear's father celebrate his birthday.. lol... dear and family decided to go to the east coast there eat kenny roger.. wahaha... yummy yummy... i love kenny roger... n it seem to be quite long i last eat with dear.. lol...

i share a meal with dear n i am already very full.. i simply just love the side dishes only.. lol... after eating the whole family go play arcade... lol... that is cool arh.. lol... when is the last time u go arcade with your family... dear family is kinda special anyway.. lol...

2009-06-20T10:05:00.005+08:00

damn long neva update my blog le.. cuz kinda lazy and also dunno what to update? cuz it seem like everyday the same... wahaha... anyway today saturday le.. today gonna give my dear dear a surprise birthday party for my dear dear.. one month ago i hav inform everyone about today... but funny thing is. no use inform them one month early de... cuz they will not block all the invitation from others sayin that they today already have date but is to see which one to go with... they happy they just go not happy then dun come also... get use to it liao... so next time i think no need one month inform them.. cuz will come mean will come.. dun wan come even half a year before inform them they will not come also de... lol...

anyway today most of them turn up... gotta me, dear, jason, zac, nina, maggie, charlie, gerard, joanne. and of course not to forget about my mother n my both sisters.. really a great thanks to my mummy n my jie jie.. without them i alone i cant do everything finish... and i am sure i have a hard time also.. lol..

i knw dear dear love bbq... so i organize a bbq for dear dear.. wahaha... he say he really got the surprise... haha.. i feel tat happy at least this is really working.. n i can see that dear dear is really enjoyin.. last year i am not able to give him a surprise.. but nw i can... lol... feel happy.. some pic for the day...

2009-06-01T15:37:00.002+08:00

today monday.. but is not a monday blue for me... wahaha... cuz is my pay day... n some moe today is earning more money.. from today onwards every monday i will be havin tuition.. as in i m givin tuition.. actually i knw my standard de la... how can i give tuition with my o lvl result? my o lvl result is actually fail de lo.. but hor tis time is diff.. i am giving tuition to foreigner.. they wanna learn chinese and here i am Miss Tan teachin chinese.. wahaha.. laugh till my jaw drop nia.. anyway not a lot student.. just one.. haha.. hopefully maybe next time i can have more if really other think my teachin is good?? lol...

anyway start of the 1st lesson is pretty good.. nothin much happen and she manage to understand what i am sayin.. lol... must do a lot of homework le..

dunno why i really make myself so occupied.. haha..

2009-05-28T15:33:00.000+08:00

today is my 6th lesson for my course.. and it seem that i was simply just very bz.. now i tues also havin class le.. lol.. i gonna make full use of my time beside working.. heard that next week those 2 lesson and is relax relax day.. lol.. that is good.. at least can slack a while.. after next week will be a new module le.. n there will be a change of teacher.. hmm.. kinda sian.. n nw i am also quite tired le..

2009-05-26T15:20:00.000+08:00

today i go for my 1st dancing class.. lol.. cool yea... anyway have been wanna go dance since young, now finally continue again... have been dancin for about 10 years le.. then stop now join back again.. hope it wun turn rusty anyway...

anyway this time i join is much much difference from the previous i have been learning.. since young till 12 i have been learning chinese dance... wahaha...

then after tat in secondary i learn modern dance.. but then get kick out around the age 14 or 15... haha..

but i know is hard for you to see that i look like a person who dance anyway... haha.. this time i join is booty exotic dance at A n J Creative. and it is located at chinatown.. i thInk i must be crazyto travel all the way from changi to chinatown... but then thank god my lesson start only on the 8.15pm so still got time ya..

today my 1st lesson i start learning the song of Nobody sang by Wonder Girls.. haha.. the song is cute and the dance step is kinda somehow the same as the MV ya.. i am enjoying myself in the class.. though i consider loner there cuz i go there by my own n sign up my own.. lol..

2009-05-23T10:11:00.002+08:00

today is just such a bz day.. lol.. morning meet dear for breakfast.. lol.. then i go work.. after working drive to tamp go find dear and go chinatown to register by course.. lol.. then go back tamp n pick up yun wen.. cuz we goin to Keith one year old birthday party.. woohoo... lol.. reach the chalet around 6 plus 7 like tat.. then we were chatting a lot of things and play with keith.. today he look so handsome n cute.. lol...

around is cake cutting time.. can see that keith gonna slp soon.. so poor thing.. but can see that he is actually very happy.. lol.. mika also here.. n she still as usual sooo cute.. n she nw knw how to talk.. feel so sweet when she call me jie jie.. lol.. so sweet... n so cute.. around 9.30pm we left.. send yun wen and joycelyn they all me n dear drive to ang mo kio meet maggie n nina.. they suggest to go jalan kayu... but then i was still so full.. lol.. just go there n chit chat n order some prata.. lol.. sit there n chat for a while.. Nina suggested to go to Seletar Dam.. i dun even knw where is it nia.. lol.. we drove in there n we actually lost our way.. thanks nina for that info.. wahah.. end up we decided to go to sengkang there.. what is that park call? er.. riverale sengkang park or what?? i only knw is somewhere near joleen house.. lol..

at there we like crazy.. laugh n laugh.. n the most entertainin thing is to scare maggie.. haha.. took a lot stupid photos n we were all sweatin except nina.. lol.. decided to go bak car n have our pinic.. lol... i forget who suggested to take pic with the car.. or is it me who suggested?? lol.. after a while we go to punggol park n slack down there.. around 3, we go home le.. have been out for one whole day.. n have been crazy for one whole day also.. lol.. damn tired.. lol...

pics as below:

Keith 1 year old birthday..